Monday, December 10, 2007

That Was Fast

I guess all I can do at this point is laugh at myself. I'm SOOO single AGAIN! I told you I wasn't any good at this dating thing. I always find a way to screw things up. I'm amazed I've had a boyfriend at all in my short little lifetime. I just can't seem to pin-point where I go wrong. Surely though, "it's not me it's you!" That's what I'm telling myself anyhow. I've got to be me, the real me, 100% no matter what, and if that's my flaw then I just can't change it. It sure does suck though! I can't get overly mushy with my pity party here. You ladies know how laughing at yourself can easily turn into a sob-session especially with the absence of chocolate nearby. My next drug of choice would be to max out a credit card on ordering scrapbook supplies or tons of little doggie outfits online. Chocolate is FAAAAAAR better in comparison when I think about the aftermath. I'd really like to go on a super long run, but it's completely dark outside and it's raining. I guess the mood is set for me, but then again this mood makes me sloth-like at the same time. I'm trying to be as perky about this situation as I can be, but I'm sure I'm just overly sarcastic instead. Oh well! It's my blog and my rant and my crappy situation. I just need to go dump all my ribbons on the floor and roll around in them. That always makes you feel good, doesn't it!?

10 comments:

Estivalia said...

Y'know, it always happens to me that the more I look for something, chances are I'm not gonna find it. Then, when I'm not really looking for it anymore, it just pop ups out of nowhere.

It happened in the romantic side too. After my first bf dumped me I had crushes on a lot of guys, but they weren't really interested on me. Only when I stop caring about guys and being alone I found Claudio.

I think it has to be with the stress of trying to be something else, to fit canons and ideals of others. If you're not really concerned about that, then your real self shows though and then someone can fall in love with who YOU are, and not what you want to be for that person.

Hmm... hope that makes sense, It's really late in this side of the world (2:25am).

Jan Scholl said...

I hated dating and I was only 18! I knew a guy 6 weeks and we got married-35 years later, I feel like I am alone even tho he is here. Not fun.

I think you and my daughter would get along so well. She dates once in a while but is independant and opinionated. A guy asked her to marry him after they lived together two years and she just rolled her eyes. All her friends are married and/or have kids-even her baby brother did it first. But she doesnt care-she will fall when its time to fall and commit when the time is right. Dont settle. Love yourself first!

PS-whenever I need a smile, I come by. You are a cutie! I am going to the gym at 5 AM (got a long day coming) so I will run on the track for you. Too nasty icy outside and I dont want to fall again! I will cede you a mile.

Debbie/StudioBeeCreations said...

OH ARGH!!!...What happened to MR. HANDY-DANDY???>....Oh well....Gary was upset you let someone else put up your shelves anyway!....when all else fails....how about Burittos????? We are way PAST due!!!.

Melissa said...

I think rolling around in ribbon sounds like an excellent thing to do! By all means, have at it!!

Hang in there sister!
M.

jayne said...

Maybe I missed something here, but what happened to the guy who got ya Lily? I thought he was the one. Well, ya know what, you don't need to have a guy around just to have one. WHen the right one comes along you will know it. I don't know you personally , but you seem like a fun and caring person to me and someone will see that when you least expect it! So for now, try to enjoy the holiday season and Lily she loves you no matter what! Til your next RAK swap!

The Stampin' Soldier said...

Jayne,

I wasn't sure what guy you were talking about who got Lilly for me (since I got her on my own), but I think you're talking about Brad since he's the only boyfriend I've mentinoed in my blog EVER. I guess I really didn't really elaborate on what happened to him. We decided not to continue our relationship since we never got to the "love level" and he was leaving for 15 months. I still keep in touch with him through occassional emails his family. You'll be glad to know he's safe and sound, but constantly asking for chips and salsa! :-)

Stephanie Earls said...

Don't get discouraged. I always seemed to find the wrong ones too. I took about a year off stupid men and then the missionaries from my church introduced me to the love of my life. We met in Jan and married in April nearly 11 years ago. I was 32 years old. Don't be in a hurry. One marriage that lasts forever is worth waiting for.

Laura Roth said...

Yes! dump the ribbons and roll! Hang in there.

Alexandra said...

Okay Laura - I missed something!! What happened to the guy you were living with???? Oh well, hang in there, it will happen when you least expect it! And, I think you should take Debbie up on the burrito date - sounds great to me!!! *STAMPIN HUGS* Alex

The Stampin' Soldier said...

Alex,

WHAT!? I didn't live with any guy! LOL! Whew! That was a shocking comment...