Friday, September 26, 2008

Falling into Place

Things just seem to be falling into place lately. It's amazing how I'm able to see events slowly unfolding in my favor. The power of prayer really is an everyday miracle. I felt like I was experiencing a break down this past week with going to the emergency room, my grandfather's passing, coworkers with cruddy attitudes, and even a few bad hair days thrown in. I've been working at the school for about two and a half years now, and it's really been eating at me. I felt like I was going to snap at any time. You're not supposed to be in a unit like mine for more than 24 months. It's high-stress to say the least, and really I cannot progress in my career without going back to a regular unit again. After I was assaulted last fall by one of my co-workers I asked to move away from the unit. They convinced me that I would be at the top of the list to move, and all I needed to do was cross-train a new person for a couple weeks before leaving. It's been nearly a year now, and I'm still living in my prison. Working at the school was amazing before all this happened. I felt like I belonged. A couple months after the incident though, my coworkers started to drift away from me. It's like they're scared that I'll start crying at any minute, or if they give me a high-five I'll claim assault on them too. It's like I have cooties! I need a new start with new people. Somewhere that I'm not known as a victim or a liability. Like I said, things are falling into place for me, and I need this more now than ever. I'll keep you posted...

3 comments:

Marie said...

It's so sad, but it's hard to be in the military and have to report someone for something. It's like all the breaking down and building us back up to be a team means that you suck it up and take whatever they did (to you or to someone else). Really though, if we were a team, no one would do terrible things to others, but they forget about that and then stay away from the person who had the guts to do something about it. Anyway, I totally understand how you feel and I sure do hope you get to move soon. It is important to move around in jobs in the military or as you said, your progression in rank can be hurt. More for your emotional well-being though, I hope that you get to move.

I don't know where I was when you posted last November about everything going on, but I am so sorry that you were going through all of that at once. What ever happened with your sister? Not sure I've seen it on here....I am Mormon - I converted in college, and him claming he had to be married by 21 is not mandated anywhere in our church, so that was a personal (perhaps parent-driven) choice of his. Did they end up getting married? I hope all turned out well there too.

I'll be thinking of you and will definitely pray that things will work out the way you want. You deserve it!!! My hubby's in Iraq and a few other places this week, so if you're bored, I'm here to e-mail/chat with you. Hugs, and have a great weekend!!

Bee said...

I hope things turn around for the best very very soon. (((hugs)))♥

Stacie said...

Laura --
Hang in there, girl! Sending hugs n' prayers your way!